Less lonely... excited for what's unfolding

We are waking up at such an incredible rate! This is very exciting!

This weekend, I spoke at the "Children of the New Earth" Conference in Sacramento. It was fairly well attended, considering it was it's first year. Seeing all the people - adults, children, teens - enthusiastically participating, volunteering, playing, presenting, communing and being fully present was heartwarming indeed.

Throughout my talk, I kept feeling the "higher" frequencies expanding in and around me. Whoosh! and I'd feel the dizziness and see other realms. LOVE, LOVE, LOVE washing through my beingness and in and out of my heart.

The most touching part for me, however, occurred when I was serving on the Educational panel. Here, amongst five other enlightened women and an audience of open hearts, I finally felt - for the FIRST TIME in my LIFE - that "we" were actually getting "there!" Or, actually, it felt like others had been able to see and trust the "new" vision, which had been part of my knowing for so long.

This isn't meant to be pretentious in any way... but I am having a hard time describing the feeling I experienced in non-dualistic words or anything like that...

The realization (or "Oh, my God" moment) that I was finally heard and people were finally getting me - well, not just "me", the little ol' Veronica on planet earth - the were resonating with me at a vibrational level.

I wanted to cry! They're awakening! They're really awakening! Oh my God! The deep loneliness that has been buried in my soul for so long felt as if it was going to be a long forgotten sadness someday soon!

Really? Is this real? I am excited, hopeful, and hesitantly waiting to see if it will actually be...

Happy Mother's Day - "Mother, May I?"

Mother, may I walk upon your earth?

Yes, you may.

Mother, may I find a soul family once I get there?

Yes, you may.

Mother, may I find joy, purpose and fulfillment?

Yes, you may.

Mother, may I make choices - good or bad?

Yes, you may.

Mother, may I mess up my life?

Yes, you may.

Mother, may I redeem myself?

Yes, you may.

Mother, may I trash your world?

Yes, you may.

Mother, may I take care of you?

Yes, you may.

Mother, may I learn to find peace and harmony within myself?

Yes, you may.

Mother, may I make a difference in the world?

Yes, you may.

Mother, may I love and be loved?

Yes, you may.

Mother, may I die upon your earth and dissolve into your bosom?
 
Yes, you may.

Thank you, Mother. Happy Mother's Day!

Thank you, my child, and know each and every day I am happy being your Mother.

What if there ISN'T any purpose to my life??

It's sad to think there is no "purpose" to my life.

At times I relish in this thought, it helps me release all feelings of responsibility! Yet, the knowing "it doesn't really matter" worries my ego.

"Of course it matters!"

*sigh*

So, my ego struggles with the knowing and the not knowing, the grasping and releasing, the desires and contentment.

It's odd to be experiencing this awakened middle place. Where "both" worlds are clear, and clearly in opposition. Yet, this state allows me to see a third view... the place where duality disappears and all is one.

Such an odd place... where ALL IS ONE and ONE IS ALL. The beauty, the knowing, the human mind's confusion over which "side" to pick.

Pick neither, my dear. Choose just ONE.

Crashing and Fading

Our senses are crashing! Our sense of self, our sense of direction, our sense of what's right and wrong... all crashing!

So, what is the value of this?

"What is a nice girl like you doing in a place like this?"

"I don't know... I don't even remember how I got here."

Someone shake me awake!

Some One Is.

As we awaken, all of who we thought we were begins to fade away with the dream. The intense feelings, the complete absorption about the storyline, the strange-yet-familiar characters all begin to fade.

Yet in that middle place, in the stretch of existence that lies between the dreamstate and the awakened state, there is confusion. Which reality is real? What's happening... oh, no! the dream is fading. Where is it going? Who am I? Where am I? I think I'm in bed. I feel my bed. Wait! What day is it? What DAY is it... think, think... I think it's Wednesday.

Is is Wednesday? All day I drift in and out of the knowing of the day. I only know it is TODAY, and that's good enough.

In my daily activities, I feel myself fading with the dream, and sometimes it feels like I'm crashing!

Is Everything Divine?

Whether or not everything is a gift from the Divine is debatable, I'm sure. Life does have its ups and downs... its ebbs and flows... it's expansions and contractions. In order to live, we must inhale and exhale. Death is a flat line.

Like all things, we, too, have our share of "good" and "bad"... our light and dark, our gifts and shadows. Are the things we label bad, dark or shadows void of Divinity? Is there anything not made from Spirit?

As humans, we were created from the sacred partnership - the Union - of Spirit and Matter. When we re-member the Unity of this Love, we re-member our true Self. We awaken to the Perfection of our entire Being - our Light and our Dark - and the perceptions of these seemingly polar opposites merge into Oneness.

In re-membering Oneness, we re-collect our wholeness - our holiness - and we find Joy.